Swelling

By now you may have guessed that my entry titles have more than one meaning.

Yes, swelling refers to body parts.  Poor Erin.  I know that body changes are an expected part of pregnancy, but it is just one more thing I would save her from if I could.  She hates her clothes and she feels unattractive.  Nothing I say will help her feel attractive, but I continue to tell her anyway -- even if she doesn't believe me.  Some people never quite get the idea that it is possible to find someone attractive no matter what they look like.  In fact, were that not the case, I probably wouldn't have ever gone on a date in my life, much less gotten married.  People have so much more to offer than the way they look.  You can put a piece of gold in a cardboard box and you still have a treasure.  And no, I'm not calling my wife a cardboard box.

Swelling also refers to how life seems to be growing so rapidly these days that it is hard to keep up with it.  Gotta pack.  Gotta fix some stuff with the new house.  Gotta move into the new house.  Gotta prepare for the baby.  Gotta find day care.  Gotta have the baby.  Gotta take care of the baby.  In other words -- gotta lot to do.

And, I find that when I don't think I can do much more that I find new energy to get things done that need to be done.  There is so much important stuff to do that resting doesn't seem like an option -- but for once I don't mind.  This isn't stess born of frustration.  This is a stress that comes with the anticipation of new and exciting changes.  It isn't always fun but the light at the end of this tunnel seems so bright that I am a lot happier about working to get there.

Every time I see my wife these days, I smile in anticipation of what is to come.  That makes her even more beautiful in my eyes and I could absolutely care less about the way she looks on the outside because all I see when I look at her is our future together.  I have a good feeling that our future will be wonderful.